Videos of Rylan


Sunday, March 29, 2009

Poem by BeBe

He knows the steps before us
He holds them in His hand
In faith we walk in darkness
Not knowing all His plan.

But He is ever present
His love with healing grace
Is there, but for the asking
When we just seek His face.

He is the source of mercy
And love that never fails
His angels all about us
Hell’s gates cannot prevail.

He’s called me, dear, to love you
To keep you at His throne
He saved you for His glory
And now, you’re not your own.

For He’s the master potter
And we are just the clay
The vessels at His choosing
Bowed down to live His way.

I’ve prayed His healing Spirit
Would hold us in His love
And give us understanding
His wisdom from above.

The pain we feel reminds us
His sacrifice of blood
Was spilled for our redeeming
Mingled down into the mud.

He died for all the heartache
For sins and sorrow shared
We do not know tomorrow,
We do know He cares.

Her spirit is in glory
Forever praising Him
And one day we will join her
United once again.

I miss her little body
The dreams that night have been
Her laughter and her giggles…
To see her once again.

I love you, child, forever
You’re bathed in prayer each day
To feel His loving kindness
As you go along your way.

Be still and feel His presence
His comfort wrapping round
He holds all our tomorrows
Our peace, in Him is found.

BeBe (Rylan’s grandmother)
This poem was reproduced with permission from the author

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Five months old

My sweet baby would be five months old. Gosh, I miss her!

I feel like I have really come to grips with her death and losing her forever. I seem to be "okay." It is kind of strange how time is healing my heart and causing me to forget what use to be so vivid and clear. It is not that I want to forget her, but slowly I am...and that is okay. She will always have a special place in my heart, but I have chosen to stay in the "light" and move forward in the life God has set before me. I can see how it would be so easy to slip into the darkness and sadness in my situation, but I will not and cannot because God has something better for me and my family. Each day, I wake up and choose press on regardless if I am missing Rylan, don't feel like getting out of bed, or just feel down. It is truly a battle between light and dark, and I am confident that whatever God brings my way...I will stay in the light and He will be right by my side.


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We love deeper and cherish each day given to us because of our trials and joys in this journey of life.